Words that need to be spoken.

Here I am writing another post to clear my heart and my mind:
When I thought I could handle myself emotionally, another lesson took me without the emotional strength I felt I had developed. I understand now even more that the learning path of knowing and healing yourself is dynamic. With all the ups and downs, growth is the only possible result. However, it takes time and reflection. The capacity to look inside, question everything we feel and think and pay attention to how our bodies manage those challenging emotions while being kind to ourselves usually takes us through those moments of uncertainty and pain. I want to dedicate this post to rumbling my feelings, thoughts, beliefs and expectations. I want to do it because these last months have been a roller coaster of emotions, where the only answer in every fall is focusing on me.
Firstly, I want to highlight a crucial lesson that these months have taught me: Loving and being vulnerable is nothing to be ashamed of. No! You are not too much for living life in every sense and giving your best to people, experiences and moments. You are not too loud for singing, dancing, laughing, crying and loving. If life is not for feeling and living with every cell of your body, what is it for?
These last few days, I have been working on internalising the belief that people have good intentions and that the world, with all its flaws, is a place that offers me love, peace, truth and fairness. While also once more recalling my worth and reminding myself that I should never settle for less than I deserve.
Secondly, Yes! I can disappoint people. I can say no. I can ask for what I need. There is nothing more liberating than communicating your feelings, what worries you and makes you insecure; if you surround yourself with people who love and care about you, they will not run away. I can be loved with all my imperfections. I love profoundly and deserve nothing but the same. With all the work it takes to nurture your self-esteem and learn about self-love and acceptance, there should not be a chance to place yourself in a situation where you have to re-evaluate your value. Still, if it happens, take your time and get back to yourself. Being our sanest version is not a linear path, and healing asks for the courage to go to the hidden parts of ourselves and find the whys, therefore, the hows.
Thirdly, understanding love from freedom has changed my mind. Nothing has to be forced, and I can not control the other person’s feelings, behaviour or expectations. The only thing I can do is be my true self, honour my values and boundaries, and choose myself in any situation because it is revolutionary and empowering. It is an act of love to choose yourself and ask others to do the same for themselves.
Rumbling with the art of letting go because nothing belongs to us. Every person and momentum comes into our life from a specific time; once its mission has been achieved, you must open your hands to let it go. Trust me, you know when it is time to move. Moving invites us to embrace change, acknowledge our pain, and focus on the lesson. We take the strength to release what it does not nurture anymore when we are conscious that our only eternal company is ourselves; hence, working on our relationship with ourselves is crucial.
Since I realised that every situation initiates and concludes with me, I am more mindful of the relationship with my inner self. Treating myself with all the care, knowing that every time I fall, the starting point is getting back to my centre, recalling what makes me powerful and different, hugging and being thoughtful of that part that has been broken.
These first four months of the year have taught me that the essential component of any experience is the capacity to regain my energy, focusing on what I feel in my core while being forgiving of my decisions and the emotional places I have allowed myself to get into and taking those learnings to build in myself a better woman. Because even when my life feels lost and empty, in my heart, I own reasons to wake up every day.
I want to raise my voice, set boundaries, be true to my beliefs, be brave to make my convictions heard, and, more than anything, never let myself forget why I am here, what fulfils my heart, and what gives me true happiness. I want to relish every small yet significant moment of joy and love. It is uncomplicated, Diana; I know you, and you can find love and beauty in the simple details.

Some people are just a glimpse, and sometimes that is just enough.

Ama, ámate, ama mucho, sin miedos, sin límites, sin peros, sólo ama.